God has been making me so conscious of how we allow the world to dictate to us. It is hard not to be shaped by the thinking of this world, because we are in the world. But, we are not of this world. We need to be consciously choosing His Kingdom above the world’s ways.
I am a little wary of turning this into a prayer, because that will allow God to strip me of this world, ouch. But at this point, I do at least want to work on becoming aware of where I am ruled by the world’s ways.
I have been particularly aware of my priorities in teaching my children. At the beginning of this year, I set out to improve academically on last year. I put a lot of effort into the content, making sure they all did everything in the curriculum or more, and drilling them on it. I could not physically get to all four my children, it was a complete impossibility to cover all the academics. I became so overcome by anxiety that I got really sick. I wasn’t sleeping, I was continuously sending adrenaline out in my body, my adrenal glands became fatigued, I wasn’t producing enough cortisol, my hair was falling out and I developed a leaky gut, which meant I had various food intolerances as a result. My body was completely falling apart, and slowly dying actually. I really struggled with depression, particularly on weekends when life suddenly stopped. Something had to change. I did get medical help to reverse what I had done to my body, from a Christian doctor God pointed me to. But I had to change my focus.
God reminded me of Jesus walking on the water and Peter joining Him. He pointed out that in order for me not to sink and drown in the circumstances of life, I needed to keep my eyes on Jesus. Not on the water, which is the circumstances of this world. Neither on the people I have left behind. And also not on other boats, because that is comparison. God is working with each of us individually, because He created us uniquely and is doing a unique work in each of us, and through each of us.
I need to first focus on Jesus, look only to Him. He is the author and perfecter of our faith Hebrews 12:2. I can also not do anything without Him, John 15:5 for without Me, you can do nothing. When my eyes are fixed on Jesus, then He will lead me to do what only He knows I should do. How can I possibly know what my children’s future holds? But He does, and not only does He know, but only He knows how to get them there.
The enemy will forever be working hard to change our focus from what is important (Jesus), to what is urgent (the world). In God’s Kingdom, nothing is ever urgent. He makes everything beautiful in its time.
The God-Given Task
What profit has the worker from that in which he labors? I have seen the God-given task with which the sons of men are to be occupied. He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.
God will never rush us. Ever. It’s the enemy who rushes us.