You know the types of prayers we have learned not to pray, like asking God for patience. Well it turns out there are many prayers like that. Of course, I’m not suggesting that we stop praying for patience et al, they are actually the best prayers to pray. Requests like these stretch us, grow us, give us perseverance and character. Romans 5:3,4 And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope.
It’s just that I am the type of human being that likes things to be tidy, listed, with boxes to tick. I also don’t like to be stretched, it’s messy, and I usually end up having to learn things the hard way. I enjoy placing an order, and then having it delivered as predicted, like the picture said. Unfortunately though, it seems I learn much better when I’ve learned it the hard way.
I am so grateful that God knows me better than I know myself, and He loves me, and He knows what I need. And His ways are higher than my ways, Isaiah 55:8,9“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.“For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts.
It was just a prayer for my children to have more drive to practice their instruments (cello and violin). They have suddenly decided a week in advance, to participate in a talent show. They are so unprepared that they need external help from their music teacher, which inconveniences me, because I have to drive them there and pay for the extra lesson. But they are so determined and driven. Wasn’t that exactly what I had prayed for?
As much as I love order and predictability, I will never stop asking God for patience, character, perseverance. I want substance more than I want order. God knows how far He can stretch me before I will break, and He promised not to stretch me beyond breaking point, so I am safe in His care.