Two years or so ago, God told me that I am His diamond. (I believe we all are!) He told me to study diamonds and all their attributes. Excitedly, I did that. Obviously, I enjoyed my findings, since it was very edifying. I even studied the various styles and shapes that diamonds are cut, and what that supposedly symbolizes.
A month later we were at the beach on holiday. Since I had been careless with valuable belongings before, and especially considering my new knowledge on the value of diamonds, I was very intent on being especially careful with my diamond engagement ring. One morning, I felt my attention specifically drawn to keeping my diamond safe. For that reason, I did not want to leave my diamond ring in the room, I also did not want to wear it, just in case. So I put it in the beach bag. After a day of fun and games, it was time to retire. Upon returning to our room, my ring was missing.
Gone. No where to be found. I didn’t understand. Why now? After I had studied diamonds, studied their value and symbolism. Now that I had learned to be careful and take special care. The sense of loss was deep and intense. I cried for weeks. My compassionate husband took me to the mall to look for a replacement. We had no insurance on personal belongings, so this was on us. Similar rings we found were five or six times the cost of the evaluation from fourteen years before. We were shocked, and simply could not justify replacing it.
Now I had no ring.
A year later we were back on the same beach. I simply could not walk the expanse of the beach without hoping to stub my toe on my diamond. I was still looking for it. I sat down, and God spoke to me, “You were careless with your diamond.” I argued, because I had taken such special care that day. Then God replied, “I told you that you are my diamond, you threw your diamond in the mud everytime you had a relationship with another man before Neal. The diamond on your finger never belonged to you, it was Neal’s diamond on your finger to symbolize that you are his. You need to repent before me and before Neal for that.”
I felt deeply convicted, in fact, I placed myself under condemnation for that. God left me there for half a day. Then He mercifully returned with these words, “You did not know your worth, you thought of yourself as a plastic lucky packet ring. You have always been a diamond.”
I am grateful for the restoration that this lesson brought to our marriage. I deeply regret the real sense of loss it took for me to learn my worth,the deep sense of loss it took for me to see the deception of the enemy to convince us we are worthless plastic.
You are a diamond. Remind the enemy of that!